- And if you read between the lines you'd know that I'm
just trying to understand the feelings that you lack. I never thought I
could feel this way and I've got to say that I just don't get it. I don't
know where we went wrong but the feeling's gone and I just can't get it
back! - Gordon Lightfoot
- A lot of you have been asking why I haven't written anything
- My jaw dropped about three weeks ago and damn few words
have come out of my mouth ever since. Mostly I've been asking for food,
lots of food. And watching a lot of movies, the black and white ones, film
noir, trying to pretend I don't live in this world of 2004. I think this
is what many people do when they reach a certain age, when current events
overtake them and they can't cope with it, and try to take refuge in the
- But let's face it. I can't cope with this reality. It's
more than I can handle. The best phrase to describe it? Incredulous stupefaction.
My head just wags back and forth involuntarily these days.
- Some of my friends say I simply read too much bad news.
Since the 9/11 deception, there's been anthrax, Afghanistan, Patriot Act,
and Iraq, to list the major chapters that go along with perhaps the worst
of all the atrocities, that never-ending story about the mass murder of
the Palestinians that the world seems so good at ignoring. And I've been
writing about all this ceaselessly for the past couple of years. And I
don't mean to demean all those wonderful people who have written to me
in appreciative support, but hell, there are six billion people in the
world, and most of them are not listening, or doing anything constructive
to stop this juggernaut of carnage that is really the world's dominant
- Strife makes money for the rich losers who foment it.
And it's getting me down to the point of speechlessness.
- What hope exists if people who profess to adhere to the
principles of the good life remain silent?
- For me, this recent paralysis really began with the Abu
Ghairab prison revelations. Attaching that poor Iraqi man to electrical
wires. That's a photograph that ranks with Jack Ruby plugging Lee Harvey
Oswald, with the Challenger explosion, with that little naked Vietnamese
girl running screaming from napalm in the ranks of the most famous pictures
in American history. Any American that doesn't feel an overwhelming sense
of shame is a complete sociopath. Unfortunately, it would seem that a majority
of the American populace as well as virtually all its leaders are exactly
that: mealy mouthed chickenshit perverted immoral sadistic sociopaths.
And many of them carry holy books and insist these atrocities are justified.
- If the objective of the great Zionist Illuminati Masonic
conspiracy is to completelty demoralize Americans, the prison scandal was
the thing that did it for me. And I'm not one who has exactly tried to
hide his head in the sand over time. I've tried to deal with all the facts
in a forthright way.
- 9/11 was an inside job covered up by politicians we elected
and media we read every day.
- The anthrax attacks came from our own government, but
no one was prosecuted.
- The Patriot Act was a clearly provable act of treason
in which virtually all of our Congress participated.
- Afghanistan was target practice on hapless nomads to
reestablish the drug trade that is run by the CIA.
- And Iraq. Poor Iraq. The American presence in Iraq is
what? What do you want to call it?
- A deliberate attempt to show the world what will happen
to it if it opposes American financial totalitarianism? Your residents
will be shot down in cold blood. Those who survive will be stripped naked
and raped if they're female, humiliated if they're male. Ghoulish American
soldiers will trifle with the corpses of your relatives and make photographs
to send home to their friends to prove they're insane.
- America robbed Iraq of everything it had, its riches,
its dignity, its health, its future. This is the real message America is
sending to the world. If the rest of the world doesn't stop America in
its tracks, right now, the world has no future. Or, the future it has will
be the rubble of the Gaza strip and the makeshift cemeteries of Fallujah.
- Imagine. Turning Yankee Stadium into a giant makeshift
cemetery. That's what real people husbands and moms and orphaned children
are contemplating today in Fallujah. The brave people of Fallujah who
repulsed the great American war machine.
- And then the images of Abu Ghraib and the new American
gulag that stretches around the world return. These prisoners have no rights
and face torture, even though their captors know they are innocent. This
is the new (?) American way, a disgusting reality that most Americans refuse
- It is one thing to pretend you don't know American prosperity
has been gained by the exploitation of millions of Third World peasants.
It is quite another thing to know that the American military practices
a policy of torture and indiscriminate murder everywhere in the world.
- And so, like me, Americans turn away from the psychotic
spectacle, unable to cope with it.
- But we all ought to think twice about doing this, about
not facing the reality of what is happening now. Because if we turn away
from this, we're only inviting the same sick thugs to do the same sick
stuff to us.
- If we leave George W. Bush in charge or for that matter,
if we elect John Kerry we guarantee that we all will be prisoners in Abu
Ghraib prison, in one stark form or another.
- The paradigm is, of course, Nick Berg. There are so many
questions about that sorry beheading episode that an accurate analysis
of the whole event remains impossible. But what is obvious is American
involvement. The powers that be had this man killed to create a public
relations episode to take the media focus off its appalling torture and
murder of imprisoned Iraqi innocents.
- Do you realize what this means? It means that it is now
OK for the U.S. federal government to come into your home and kill you
because they then will tell a story to the public explaining what a threat
you were to Homeland Security. If you think this is farfetched, I suggest
you watch the Nick Berg carefully video and contemplate your own future.
(Hint: you have none.)
- Who will be held responsible for this horrific act? We
know the policy of emotionally devastating prisoners of the U.S. war machine
came from the very top of the organizational chart. We know that this stunt
was ordered by the same power freaks who staged 9/11 to cram a state of
permanent war down our throats.
- And yet we accede to it. What can we DO about it? we
ask. We pretend we are powerless.
- In my mind, George W. Bush is already guilty of mass
murder and treason for what he did or didn't do about 9/11. As commander
in chief of the war machine, he must also take responsibility for Nick
Berg, a deliberate murder for propaganda purposes. I wonder if God told
him to do it, just like God told him to invade Afghanistan.
- Doesn't it chill you to know that the life of an American
citizen can be squandered in this way, so cynically, with all the public
facts about so twisted? Please contemplate the chances that something like
this could happen to you.
- And continue to ask the question: who is to be held responsible
for all these murders, these endless murders? Who do you think?
- In my need to escape this bleak news-scape these days,
I contemplate a movie made more than a decade ago that, like all good movies
do, reflects what is happening now. It was called In the Mouth of Madness,
made by that controversial Grade-B horror movie guru John Carpenter. And
it depicts a progressively horrific sequence of inexplicable murders woven
into a tale about some psycho and his holy book.
- The astonishing punch line at the end reveals that the
people who are watching the movie in horror are actually the same people
who are IN the movie committing the bloody murders.
- You can imagine the wide-eyed hysterical laughter when
the main character realizes he is the person in the movie doing the killing.
In fact, if you watch the evening news tonight, and then go into your bathroom
and stare into the mirror, you can probably re-create the scene yourself.
- John Kaminski is the author of America's Autopsy Report,
a collection of his Internet essays that have appeared on hundreds of websites
around the world, and The Day America Died: Why You Shouldn't Believe the
Official Version of What Happened on September 11, 2001, a booklet designed
to be read by those who continue to trust what the U.S. government is saying.
For information about both, go to:
- Or, to read some more of his recent essays for free,