- Hi Jeff - Per your request for further information about
the impact of Morgellons on the mind. As you know, I've had it for over
10 years and offer this information based on all of that experience and,
as you well know, many years of intense research into this catastrophic
affliction. Your 8th Morgellons Special - Psychological, Emotional, Personality
and Relationship Impacts - should also be listened to carefully by all
- I sincerely hope the below helps. - Cliff
- Morgellons Destroys Relationships, Families
- By Cliff Mickelson
- It has long been common knowledge among Morgellons researchers
that the effects of this emerging plague are not limited to simple physical
manifestations. As do many other new and emerging diseases, Morgellons
attacks the mind of all victims as well as their body. In so doing, it
is at once both obvious and subtle in it's symptomology. Perhaps the most
pervasive and common baseline defining this duel attack is a form of Depression
that often makes its appearance during the early onset of the condition.
- Depression is an insidious condition that debilitates
a victim while often leaving them completely clueless as to the process
that is affecting them. Of course, as we know, Depression is not the sole
domain of Morgellons victims. It is an "umbrella" condition and
finds fertile ground in many traumatic life-events as well as pathologies.
- It is important at this juncture to emphasize that the
demonstrative behavioral effects upon the personality of a subject afflicted
with Morgellons, (and to some extent, Lyme) generally go beyond the normal
behavioral parameters that define classical Depression. We can call it
Depression with a "twist".... It is a curious phenomena and one
that is still poorly recognized and/or understood.
- For lack of more concise terminology, the "twist"
can be roughly described as "selective negative personality trait
- It is an extremely novel and subtle effect but one that
is part and parcel of the Morgellons personality profile.
- The denial that accompanies this behavioral modification
is commensurate with that of Depression. The victim rarely notices their
own negative enhancements. However, such changes do not often escape the
notice of those closest to the victim. They in turn, often find themselves
increasingly powerless to negotiate a relationship where the rules they
formerly co-existed by no longer apply or are being arbitrarily changed.
- As a result, many Morgellons victims unwittingly engage
in a form of relationship 'suicide' where relationships are almost invariably
destroyed by stealth personality traits that target the very people closest
to them and who form their primary support system.
- Behavioral modification in a Morgellons victim generally
occurs in the initial stages of the disease. These appear to be changes
that are always rooted in the natural proclivities that existed in the
makeup of the personality prior to affliction. However, prior to Morgellons
onset these personal and socially counterproductive personality traits
are ones that were usually partially or completely controlled, regulated
- Morgellons appears to create in its victims a condition
which allows a certain number of these formerly sub-dominant behaviors
to become "enhanced" to varying degrees. During the high season
of initial onset, a victim, (Even if he or she is made aware of the issue)
will be unlikely to be able to exert effective self-control or to take
personal responsibility for modified behaviors in question.
- The forms and types of negative behavioral examples available
for impartial examination are legion. Judgmental excesses as well as compulsive
completion and procrastination issues are usually but not always the locus
of these matters.
- Fault projection in a relationship, (especially if the
tendency was pre-existing) is also quite common. This particular enhancement
is usually directed at a spouse or significant other. It is one of the
more personally destructive effects of Morgellons and has been the ruination
of many formerly healthy and rewarding relationships.
- It is worth noting that most Morgellons victims who have
weathered the first few years of affliction have slowly come to an awareness
of this phenomenon and it's effect upon their lives and the lives of those
around them. With the dawning of this awareness comes a belated self-understanding
and the beginning of the painful journey toward a compromise/solution that
enables the Morgellons patient to engage in a functional or semi-functional
life once again. It is long and difficult struggle but one that is its
own reward in the end.
- -Cliff Mickelson
- Editor's note - Here is the 8th Morgellons Special in
free, downloadable MP3. For the many in the Morgellons community who have
lost families, husbands, wives and relationships to this stealth nightmare,
we hope Cliff Mickelson's letter helps both those with Morgellons and those
close to them realize that the mental changes they are seeing are more
than real...and they play for keeps. Here is the free listen link to our
8th Morgellons Special program...
- MORGELLONS SPECIAL No. 8
- Psychological, Emotional, Personality
- And Relationship Impacts
- Cliff Mickelson, Jan Smith Guests
- (MP3 Audio File)
- This was very helpful for me. I am fighting to keep my
relationships intact. I do not feel or think the same as I used to. I am
so different now, and I cannot seem to get my old jolly self back and everyone
does not understand.