- Each day, I read stories about Jewish cults and customs,
corrupt Jewish leaders and the heinous activities of the Zionist elite.
Each day I read about the brutality in the Middle East, the plight of the
Palestinians, and the culpable Jewish leaders in America. And each day,
as I think back on my personal history, my coming of age in an average
American Jewish family, I wonder, "where do I fit in?"
-
- I am prompted to write this essay because stories like
mine rarely get told. It is the story of an ordinary Jewish family, my
family.
-
- My childhood drama played on the stage of a secular Jewish
family. Dad, who had been raised as an Orthodox Jew, married Mom, an atheist.
She professed to be a Zionist, and yet, I cannot help but wonder, if she
were alive today, how she would feel about the behavior of the State of
Israel.
-
- I was blessed with a sister who is five years my senior.
Always wanting to be like her, I followed obediently down the rebellious
road that she paved. She refused religious instruction so "little
sister" emulated her. My father went to shul (synagogue) alone.
-
- Certain holidays did make their way into the Zaldin household.
We had our annual Passover Celebration, we lit candles on Chanukah, on
Rosh Hashanah my father made his pilgrimage to the shul and on Yom Kippur,
my mother yelled at my sister and me as we headed out the door to spend
time doing "our own thing"
-
- "What will the neighbors think?" My mother's
main concern echoed behind us.
-
- I did not know much about the meaning behind the holidays
except, supposedly, that they had something to do with the Jews fleeing
persecution. In an attempt to enlighten me, Dad provided a copy of "Hillel's
Happy Holidays". If I indeed read it, I do not remember it. And from
what I have learned, since those innocent days of yesteryear, they were
not necessarily "happy".
-
- Dad pursued a career in medicine.
-
- "You are wasting your time and money" His father
had no empathy for his son's choice and wanted him to take his rightful
place in the family furniture business. But Dad was resolute, and so, in
the face of extreme opposition, he did various and sundry jobs to put himself
through medical school. You see, my Dad had watched his mother die an excruciating
death from esophageal cancer when he was a boy of 16. His motivation was
to help put an end to suffering.
-
- My father was a dreamer. But he was a lot more. An old
fashioned man, Dad was the stereotypical family doctor with the little
black bag who made "house calls". Yes, dear readers, there were
such things, back in the day. Many a night, the phone would awaken him.
Bag in hand, he set out to answer the cry of the sick. Those were the days
before Medicare and Medicaid and so, if his patients could not pay, they
did not pay.
-
- "Before I die, there will probably be a cure for
cancer" He said innocently. He has been dead for 24 years.
-
- I am certain that my father, with his Orthodox background,
had read the Talmud and yet, when my sister and I married outside the faith,
both husbands were welcomed into the family. We never heard the "g"
word. We were never exposed to any racist doctrine. If I had not reincarnated
as an Internet essayist, I would never have known about the racist Babylonian
Talmud. The secular Jewish people I knew assimilated into the host culture
and many of them intermarried. Their children also intermarried.
-
- Last night I listened to Joachim Martillo being interviewed
on Lewis News. He is a convert to Islam but has a rich background in Jewish
studies. In Israel, he got to experience the evils of Zionism first hand.
-
- In my family, lying to anyone, whether Jew or Gentile,
was considered a sin. And so, it was with great interest that I heard Mr.
Martillo discuss the Kol Nidre, the most sacred and controversial prayer
in the Jewish religion. "There are many non-Jewish Web sites that
are alarmed by the existence of this prayer and what they feel is a license
to lie and deceive year after year." The "Explaining Kol Nidre"
Web site --
- www.angelfire.com/mt/talmud/kolnidre.html
-
- Mr. Martillo explained the difference between a vow and
a contract, and further research provided me with the following: "Refers
Only to Individual Vows.
- The teachers of the synagogues, however, have never failed
to point out to their cobelievers that the dispensation from vows in the
"Kol Nidre" refers only to those which an individual voluntarily
assumes for himself alone (see RoSH to Ned. 23b) and in which no other
persons or their interests are involved. In other words, the formula is
restricted to those vows which concern only the relation of man to his
conscience or to his Heavenly Judge "(see especially Tos. to Ned.
23b). http://www.jewishencyclopedia.com/view.jsp?artid=340&letter=K
-
- I believe that my father was an unusual role model for
ethics. We had a summer cottage upstate where no taxes were required, but
our main place of residence was in heavily taxed Brooklyn, NY. When my
father bought my mother an expensive coat, he could easily have avoided
paying taxes by using the upstate address. And yet, he refused. He did
not think it was ethical And furthermore, he felt privileged to be able
to pay taxes in America. You see, Dad's family had been in Russia during
the Pogroms. His older brother was nearly killed. And so, when they came
to America, they literally kissed the ground.
-
- And now it is 2007 and the world is precariously teetering
in the balance. Israel is not the dream that my mother had envisioned.
The America of today is not the dream of my father. They have morphed into
a nightmare where greedy unconscionable elitists make the rules and the
ordinary person, Jew or Gentile is merely fodder for the self serving goals
of the ruling cabal. I have long since left the Jewish religion, if indeed,
I was ever there. I was baptized in 1991 and opened myself to an entirely
new reality. And yet, the values of my family of origin will always be
a part of me.
-
- The Internet screams about Jewish crimes and Jewish criminals.
My mission as an Internet essayist has been twofold. One has been to open
Jewish eyes to the reality of their leaders; leaders who have duped them
in the past and are duping them again. I yearn for Jewish people to question
what is truly taking place in the Middle East. I yearn for Jewish people
to question their history and their reported "victimhood". I
yearn for Jewish people to become "individuals" and not fall
prey to a "consensus trance" imposed upon them by "fear
programming". I yearn for Jewish people not to accept the official
narrative of events past and not to jail differing opinions. I yearn for
Jewish people to rise up against their leaders. And, most passionately,
I yearn for ALL Jewish people to recognize that nobody is any better or
any worse than anyone else.
-
- In addition, I yearn for non Jewish people to realize
that not ALL Jewish people are corrupt and/or evil. Certainly there are
families that lie and cheat, but it is important to acknowledge that my
story is not unique; many people have grown up in families such as mine.
Do not let those who have been corrupted obscure the reality that there
are many people of Jewish origin who have love and respect for all of humanity.
-
- I hope my story has been of value. That is the only justification
for its telling.
-
- "We are one, after all, you and I; together we suffer,
together exist, and
- forever will recreate one another." - Teilhard de
Chardin.
-
- www.judyandreas.com
JUDE10901@AOL.COM
-
-
- TAKE TWO...
Growing Up Jewdy
By Judy Andreas
-
- The other day, during an innocent Judy Andreas google,
I stumbled across a description of myself as a "racist". I have
also been accused of being an anti-Semite and have found myself awkwardly
positioned on the "Self Hating Israel Threatening" list. http://www.masada2000.org/shit-list.html
- I have been the recipient of angry midnight phonecalls
from angry rabid Zionists. The calls ranged from threats to propositions;
in other words from sickening to downright repulsive. Four letter words
were pelted at me.
-
- A gust of "hot air" has also blown in from
the other direction. An essayist once called me "the head of the Israel
Protection racket"and, in addition, falsified my maiden name.
What is the old expression? "Say what you want but please spell my
name right"!
-
- "You are too pretty to be Jewish", a member
of a Christian Identity group paid me a compliment. (?) "What is your
blood type? I think that you probably are not really Jewish" I know
she meant well, but I cannot say that I was particularly flattered.
-
- Each day, my mailbox fills up with the most bizarre stories
of Jewish cults and customs as well as the heinous activities of the Zionists.
And no matter which way I turn, there is discomfort awaiting my psyche.
Though I have consecrated my life to fairness and honesty, I realize that
there is always an invective waiting to be hurled in my direction.
-
- Recently, I heard an interview in which a man said that
he could not define what a Jew is. Positioned in front of the computer,
with my head nodding in agreement, I began to think of all the variations
on the theme of Judaism. I thought of the Hasidic Jews, with their disparate
sects, the Orthodox Jews, who differ vastly from the Hasidim, the Conservative
Jews, "the branch of Judaism that allows for modifications in Jewish
law when authorized by the Conservative rabbinate" <http://www.answers.com/topic/conservative-judaism>http://www.answers.com/topic/conservative-judaism,
and the Secular Jews, which embrace a variety of groups including those
whose affiliation to Judaism is merely cultural.
-
- "The Orthodox, particularly, worry that secular
Jews will fail to pass Judaism on to the next generation." Betty Rollin
http://www.pbs.org/wnet/religionandethics/week609/feature.html
-
- I thought of the Turkish Jews, Ethopian Jews, Sephardic
Jews, Ashkanazi Jews and Jews for Jesus. It is difficult to group them
under the umbrella of Judaism, since many have very little in common. In
addition, some Jews are Zionists and look upon Israel as the fulfillment
of the "promise" of a Jewish Homeland, while others are vehemently
opposed to the settler State of Israel.
-
- "Where do I fit in?" I wondered.
-
- My childhood drama played on the stage of my Secular
Jewish family. Dad, who had been raised Orthodox married Mom, an atheist.
She professed to be a Zionist, and yet, I cannot help but wonder, if she
were alive today, how she would feel about the behavior of the State of
Israel.
-
- I was blessed with a sister who is five years my senior.
Always wanting to be like her, I followed obediently down the rebellious
road that she paved. She refused religious instruction so "little
sister" emulated her. My father went to shul (synagogue) alone.
-
- Certain holidays did make their way into the Zaldin household.
We had our annual Passover Celebration, we lit candles on Chanukah, on
Rosh Hashanah my father made his pilgrimage to the shul and on Yom Kippur,
my mother yelled at my sister and me as we headed out the door to spend
time doing "our own thing"
-
- "What will the neighbors think?" My mother's
main concern echoed behind us.
-
- I did not know much about the meaning behind the holidays
except, supposedly, that they had something to do with the Jews fleeing
persecution. In an attempt to enlighten me, Dad provided a copy of "Hillel's
Happy Holidays". If I indeed read it, I do not remember it. And from
what I have learned, since those innocent days of yesteryear, they were
not necessarily "happy".
-
- Dad pursued a career in medicine.
-
- "You are wasting your time and money" His father
had no empathy for his son's choice and wanted him to take his rightful
place in the family furniture business. But Dad was resolute, and so, in
the face of extreme opposition, he did various and sundry jobs to put himself
through medical school. You see, my Dad had watched his mother die an excruciating
death from esophageal cancer when he was a boy of 16. His motivation was
to help put an end to suffering.
-
- My father was a dreamer. But he was a lot more. An old
fashioned man, Dad was the stereotypical family doctor with the little
black bag who made "house calls". Yes, dear readers, there were
such things, back in the day. Many a night, the phone would awaken him.
Bag in hand, he set out to answer the cry of the sick.
- Those were the days before Medicare and Medicaid and
so, if his patients could not pay, they did not pay.
-
- "Before I die, there will probably be a cure for
cancer" He said innocently. He has been dead for 24 years.
-
- I am certain that my father, with his Orthodox background,
had read the Talmud and yet, when my sister and I married outside the faith,
both husbands were welcomed into the family. We never heard the "g"
word. We were never exposed to any racist doctrine. If I had not reincarnated
as an Internet essayist, I would never have known about the racist Babylonian
Talmud. The Secular Jewish people I knew assimilated into the host culture
and many of them intermarried. Their children also intermarried.
-
- Friday night I listened to Joachim Martillo being interviewed
on Lewis News. He is a convert to Islam but has a rich background in Jewish
studies. In Israel, he got to experience the evils of Zionism first hand.
-
- In my family of origin, lying to both Jews and Gentiles
was a sin. And so I was glad to hear Mr. Martillo discuss the Kol Nidre,
the most sacred and the most controversial prayer in the Jewish religion.
- "There are many non-Jewish Web sites that are alarmed
by the existence of this prayer and what they feel is a license to lie
and deceive year after year." The "Explaining Kol Nidre"
Web site --
- www.angelfire.com/mt/talmud/kolnidre.html
-
- Mr. Martillo discussed the difference between a vow and
a contract.
-
- With further research, I came upon the following:
-
- "Refers Only to Individual Vows.
-
- The teachers of the synagogues, however, have never failed
to point out to their cobelievers that the dispensation from vows in the
"Kol Nidre" refers only to those which an individual voluntarily
assumes for himself alone (see RoSH to Ned. 23b) and in which no other
persons or their interests are involved. In other words, the formula is
restricted to those vows which concern only the relation of man to his
conscience or to his Heavenly Judge "(see especially Tos. to Ned.
23b). http://www.jewishencyclopedia.com/view.jsp?artid=340&letter=K
-
- My father was my role model for ethics. We had a summer
cottage upstate where no taxes were required, but our main place of residence
was in heavily taxed Brooklyn, NY. When my father bought my mother an expensive
coat, he could easily have avoided paying taxes by using the upstate address.
And yet, he refused. He did not think it was ethical And furthermore, he
felt privileged to be able to pay taxes in America. You see, Dad's family
had been in Russia during the Pogroms. His older brother was nearly killed.
And so, when they came to America, they literally kissed the ground.
-
- And now it is 2007 and the world is precariously teetering
in the balance. Israel is not the dream that my mother had envisioned.
The America of today is not the dream of my father. They have morphed into
a nightmare where greedy unconscionable elitists make the rules and the
ordinary person, Jew or Gentile is merely fodder for the self serving goals
of the ruling cabal. I have long since left the Jewish religion, if indeed,
I was ever there. I was baptized in 1991 and opened myself to an entirely
new reality.
- The Internet screams about Jewish crimes and Jewish criminals.
There are some people who feel that ALL Jews are culpable for the sins
of their leaders. My mission has been twofold. One has been to open Jewish
eyes to the reality of their corrupt leaders; leaders who have duped them
in the past and are duping them again.
-
- I yearn for Jewish people to question what is truly taking
place in the Middle East. I yearn for Jewish people to question their history
and their reported "victimhood". I yearn for Jewish people to
become "individuals" and not fall prey to a "consensus trance"
imposed upon them by "fear programming". I yearn for Jewish people
not to accept the official narrative of events past and not to jail differing
opinions. And, most passionately, I yearn for ALL Jewish people to recognize
that nobody is any better or any worse than anyone else.
-
- I yearn for non Jewish people to realize that not ALL
Jewish people are corrupt and/or evil. (Although we will never make the
headlines, my family of origin was not unique.) I yearn for non Jewish
people to realize that there are many Jewish people speaking out and speaking
up and, in the process, losing family, friends and jobs.
-
- I yearn for both Jews and non Jews to realize that the
"many" are being manipulated by the "few".
-
- Despite our differing appearances and our differing belief
systems, we are, at the end of the day, all part of the great body of humanity.
We are all individual expressions of the ONE.
-
- "We are one, after all, you and I; together we suffer,
together exist, and
- forever will recreate one another." - Teilhard de
Chardin.
-
- Copyright: 2007
-
- www.judyandreas.com
JUDE10901@AOL.COM
-
-
- A Sampling Of Comments...
-
- *Judy, Thanks for your story. I'm not Jewish, and
long ago had a negative stereotypical idea about "Jews". You
humanize your family very touchingly--and unless a ot of humanizing of
other cultures begins soon, the world will not be a place in which we will
want to live. Love from me to you. --R
-
- * Dear Judy, i read your beautiful article you are an
inspiration i am a traditional catholic and that is exactly the way i feel
do not fear anyone as GOD is on your side as HE said by their fruits you
shall know them and to send you hateful e mail is showing us justwhat their
fruits are not good for sure GOD BLESS YOU --KAY
-
- * .Excellent Judy!!! Very good!! It cuts like a
thin sharp sword which one does not feel as it slices their
flesh.. You're using your words as colors as painters would use
their brush.
- --M
-
- * As a Quaker I have always liked Jews (with
a few yelling and screaming exceptions) because they are one of the rare
sources of lively discourse and respect for education in a society of lower
middle class boors. Thank you for your essay. I had been reading so many
anti-Zionist essays that I needed a reminder. I wish more Jews or former
Jews would stand up to the Neocons and the other conspiratorial types.
It is a lot to ask though. 00P
-
- * Thanks for your story. I'm not Jewish, and long ago
had a negative stereotypical idea about "Jews". You humanize
your family very touchingly--and unless a lot of humanizing of other cultures
begins soon, the world will not be a place in which we will want to live.
Love from me to you. (no signature)
-
- * Just read your latest essay on rense.com. Thank you
for clarifying the Kol Nidre. Since reading about it, I've been very disturbed
by it, and tried to find an explanation such as yours. Thank you for providing
it.I'm still working to separate myself from the schemes of the ruling
cabal, Jew and Goy alike; they're pure evil, and Zionism qualifies as the
False Prophet in Revelation, creating an image of the Beast (Islam) which
everyone worships, great and small (image doesn't necessarily mean physical
idol; a public relations scam is in progress to make Islam look far more
powerful than it is), and of course, the mark in the right hand or forehead
is right around the corner. Meanwhile, you've relieved a stressor. Thank
you. --Josh
-
-
-
- Judy...Thanks for the 'Jewdy' articles - quite informative.
Your discontent with aspects of your heritage reminds me of some of my
issues regarding mankind as a whole. All too often I feel like I just
don't belong in this world. Still, there is beauty to behold and experience
in many directions. Paul.
-
-
-
- I used to live in the USA and I left for New Zealand
ten years ago. There are things I miss, but over-all, it was a good decision.
So, why am I writing you? I want you to know that you have fans here
in New Zealand. If you have fans here, you must also have fans from many
other countries. I really appreciate what you have to say; your
perspective is absolutely refreshing and I sincerely believe that
your efforts help make the world a better place. As they say down under
"Good-on-ya!" Please do not respond to this message
but use the same time to continue your writin
-
-
- Judy, You're not the only one who has wondered
what it means to be a x_______.
-
- When and where I grew up, it was unsafe to be anything
but a white man; and owing to the Dutch and French side of my ancestry,
and the fact that my parents never told me otherwise, I got by as a little
white science nerd. Sort of got by. Except seeing the one black boy in
my school getting beat up almost daily made my blood boil, so I took a
few beatings too, and was labeled "nigger lover".
-
- I was enthralled by my dad's uncanny knowledge of the
woods, and chastened by his consistent respect for life. "Just take
the dead wood, son; don't cut that tree.", and "Don't kill
that animal unless you plan to eat it." But I never knew why until
about a year before he "crossed over" - "By the way, you're
part Indian on both my dad and mom's side."
-
- Like a door opened, I began to meet Indian people in
the local community and, unlike most of the white people I ever met, we
actually got along. Before long, I was introduced to several respected
elders and medicine men. These were'nt the publicity seeking, self aggrandizing,
money hungry types, but the genuine articles. I kept my mouth shut, and
worked, and learned.
-
- One of the things I learned is that, all stereotypes
and fascinations aside, people are pretty much the same around the world.
In the grand movie of life, most are "extras", just a few are
bad guys, and just a few are good guys. I learned that a lot of The People
are programmed to be sensitive about their own holocaust and traditions,
but are too caught up in modern society to practice, or even remember those
traditions. (It appears that this is one of the purposes of modern society.)
-
- I learned that I'm too white to be Indian, and too Indian
to be white. What that means is, since the US government invented the
"blood quantum" method of determining who's what, a lot of people
have subscribed to it, since it is rather simple-minded. According to
the elders, however, a person was traditionally considered Indian if he
lived as an Indian - no matter if his skin was green or his nose grew on
the back of his head.
-
- I also learned that none of this matters, because there
is something about life which is much larger and deeper than being
French or Jew or Indian, or even human, for a that matter. It's a force
which both gives and takes life, every moment of the day, like your breath
going in and out. It tells us "what's what", if we listen -
if we take time out from our heavy schedule of self-serving preoccupation
and fear and speculation. The medicine men call it "the force that
moves in all things" - the Spirit.
-
- You say you don't really know. But you were there along.
You knew what your father knew, because you are of the same flesh. Real
knowledge only passes through the intellect; but if it remains, it is stored
in the body itself. So what that you don't know the intricate meanings
and history of the holidays? In your article, your "yearnings"
betray that your Spirit knows what's right. And that's what really counts.
-
- Greg
-
-
-
- A real Masterpiece Judy. I better wander on over to AZC and
click the 'approve' button.
-
- Regards, M
-
-
-
- Thanks for the careful writing of your article...
-
- Yes, like many others, I have been reading some frightening
things atributed to jews which probably should be better atributed to
zionists or just downright criminals.
-
- I had not noticed that jews even really existed as a
different kind of people until very recently...I am 60 years old so this
may seem difficult to believe. but a couple of my best friends from art
school , my best friend and colleague at university where I taught
architectural drawing for many years and a couple of girlfriends are jewish
i think....they held no mystique or difference for me...they must have
been very much like you and your family...us growing up in western australia,
you in the USA. I even went 2 years to the free jewish university in Perth
to try to learn Hebrew,as I studied Modern greek, Italian, French and German
in my free time at the very University where i taught.
-
- But all this changed very recently when i was sending
out my articles from Rense.com to my lists and there was one of those articles
that show just how unjust Israel is in relation to the Palestinians and
to my surprise got a mail back from one of these friends of 40 years telling
me that he was angry at me for sending this kind of article as it very
seriously looked like i was insulting him or his family!. I wrote him back
immediately after I got over the shock, carefully delineating what i thought
could clear the air, elucidating the difference for me between zionist
actions and anti-semitism. to no avail...he said that "what if his
family were zionists?" and then went on to tell me that he was afraid
for jews today, that he is militantly anti religion, but that i should
be careful about insulting his family. I have just simply been unable to
write anything more to him...he did say that he was interested in my art
ideas. in this moment, in this dangerous moment, art is almost of zero
interest for me...except for music. his reaction has created a dilemma
for me....your mail has showed me that it is true...there are jews who
don´t want to see, don´t want to hear....simply all argument
is anti-semitic.
-
- I myself am an atheist..not an agnostic.
-
-
- I believe that even the "moral "education that
is supposedly presumed to be inherent in the "education" of children
with religion and is supposedly elevating, is subverted right from the
word go, into elitist/racist/control. for me all religions are subversions
of the words and deeds of their creators...perversions of their teachings
and ideas....and the logical outcome of this is millions of hypocrites...having
to steer between hardly understood high ideals and weird realities created
by failed idealists or cynical manipulators! we could do much better without
these aberrations.
-
- But getting back to this letter about my shock...and
my old friend.......you gave me a clearer understanding of this scene and
my reaction to it. This clearly written description of your reality
helped me to see more clearly my own.
-
-
- Thank you......also having someone to write this to helped,
too. So, doubly thanks.
-
-
- Yours... Sam
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